Typically Strange and Scary!

OH!!! UGH!! OH! (pant pant) UH OOHH!!! Then silence except for some

strangled noises as the back arches and the energy shoots out the
top of the skull. Ecstacyyyyyyyy!!! At one with all creation! At one
with GOD! With LOVE! With LIFE! WITH EVERYTHING!!! I LOVE LOVE
LOVE!!!

This is how a sudden expression of Kundalini can feel though words
will never approach it.

Then you may hear your name being called when nobody is in the room
except you. Or you may see the floating lights that nobody sees
except you. Its easy to read of these experiences not so easy to
experience these experiences.

Thus begins the break down of a persons basic reality. The laws of
science go flying out the window as the room is filled with the
sounds of a million crickets or bees that are humming every where
but there are no crickets to be seen and no bees to be found and yet
there is that humming and chirping! And lets not forget the flute
players! Hi guys!

The dreams are filled with snakes and spiders and people with
glowing blue eyes. "YIKES" Dis-embodied eyes are floating around and
somehow the smell of incense and roses has come into your home and
your not burning it! Yep the deep end has come and your swimming in
it!

And now fear has begun to creep more expressivly into your thoughts.

"Am I nuts? Did I really see that dancing blue girl and did she
really change into a snake and go into my closet? I will NEVER go
into that closet to find out!"

Now the consciousness starts to scatter as fear and doubt of mental
stability fall away into a knowing that reality has gone somewhere
else.

A feeling you are in trouble ticks away in what is left of your mind.

Paranoia is next on the menu as the kidneys expand and the adrenals
pump out the epinephrine. Fighting and fleeing only works when it
isnt internal to the body.

"Who said that?"
"What?"
"Oh... that was me. Oh Sh&t!"
"I am still me...I am still me...I am still meee...

(insert theme from twilight zone here)

"OK OK THAT was me. But I know "their" listening to me! Whoever they
are!"

"I am nuts?! Ahhhh! Yippeeee! Except.....except.... I dont
really...feel nuts. I feel like the same old me. This cant be a hang
over as I havent seen "HER" for about six months. She of the
double margarita's.

But I MUST BE. But it doesnt feel like I am. But I cannot be seeing
these...these...things!"

AAAnd so it goes for those of us who do not know about Kundalini or
the awakening process. Sometimes years can go by and many stays at
the local psyche ward and even then the symptoms are merely put on
hold or become twisted into worse forms than before. Drugs can do
that with Kundalini.

For those of you searching for this expression these scenarios may
occur for you but the difference is the fear will not be so
complete. For you, I or someone else who has experienced and who knows will be here and your journey will be
understood. Much of the fear is about not knowing what is going on.
So no worries! - blessings - chrism

© chrism 2008